What ever you do dont case it!!

ok so my title may sound weird but let me explain,, so park city resort has some sick kickers and i went with jason today, there was this 35 foot table topp after the kicker and you have to totally clear it and land on the down part while doin a grab or throwin a 360 or somethin like that, anyways i was in front of the kicker and you really have to be haulin to clear it and jason messed himself up on it last week and when i went for it he told me dude, "what ever you do dont case it"' i just keep thinkin that when i was hittin it. so i dindnt case it and did some sick stuff on it throughout the day, i have been snowboarding for about 6 years now and i think i am pretty good i try to do good in tournaments and stuff i really wanna get sponsored but if not its fine i love snowboarding no matter what, :)

Ill blame it on bad luck.

hi.
so last, last, entry i was really pumped for a tattoo and i had an appointment and everything and then it turned out i did not have enough money...how crappy so that was a huge downer, but no one worry i am getting it no matter what ha ha. i then on friday went to the tattoo convention then after that hung out with the my friends and that was pretty intense actually ended up sleeping over at austins. the next day was valentines which was not anything special seeing as i dont have anyone to share the day with so i rented and watched hellboy 2 with my brother austin it was pretty good... i have been thinking and my thoughts are this, #1 I absolutely hate my job, #2 i wish i had a new car, #3 i want to buy some new shirts, and #4 all i think about are tattoos it seems like.. anyways i am on slide #2 of 20 that i have to do for my english class which sucks..

Not down...

well i was supposed to get my tattoo today, but i didnt have all the money so i just have to wait until i get paid and my mom can give me some money, it really bummed me out cause i have been looking forward to it all week and for a while even dillion has been poking me in the ribs to get me ready for the pain im about to go through, o well i have waited eighteen years i guess a couple more weeks wont kill me....

"As for the rest of us well do fine with what we have making the best of what is left".

Today is monday, and with monday comes either hope, for something new..bitterness, because you are not down for whatever is going on this week..or anger, because you wish it was still the weekend. and i have to say that this monday i have a feeling of hope, my hope for this week is getting a tattoo! so i have always wanted one just not sure what to get but i have decided and it is the bird that the band bayside uses for like their logo, why i am choosing this is because... im 17 i guess you could say i live more for the now for the later and this whole year has been great i have got the best grades i think i ever have in my life, i have friends that i think will last a lifetime, and throught this whole period of time a particular band has really kind of i think given me a motivational push, i say this because i really thimk music can impact on the way you feel, and i feel great about myself and about my choices so to me this will always remind me of how i will succeed in my life. :) :)

Running out of gas.

so, like usuall im on e, i can never seem to keep my gas tank full. i had a intresting day yesterday i went to school, then went to wrestling practice after that i thought i was going to go to the gateway with some friends but ended up i just went by my self. it was fine i had time to think i walked around and the one thing that caught my attention was there was two old and very wrinkly people sitting on a bench and holding hands, not talking just sitting and enjoying each others company, it made me think that i hope that is me one day and will find the girl of my dreams and be with her forever. and then i spent 234$ and that made me think of all the materiel things that people buy that maybe last for a couple months if taken care of, so i guess the only thing that really lasts is love...but not just any love true love that you really mean ha ha if that even makes any sense, anyways, looking forward to do nothing today maybe sit on the couch. :)

This could be good?

Ok,
so i guess im going to start writing this blog, i mean it seems like a really good way to get my feelings out there and be heard, and also all of my freinds are doin it so i want to to, ok well i will try to update this thing as much as i can and make it funny or tragic or just whatever. well to talk about something first off i have a horrible job i sell food at the esa arena and im not sure its normal to have thoughts of suicide everytime i go to work but i do. I also have been trying to, in a way chase a certain person and try to start something out of nothing, but i have totally stopped trying to talk to her or impress her, if you dont know who im talking about maybe the clue tea party will give you a clue to who it is, i have stopped because i am 17 and in 4 months eighteen i really just want to live my life how it is right now i have the best friends ever and i really dont need anything else... well i hope this all made sense

-Josh