This could be good?

Ok,
so i guess im going to start writing this blog, i mean it seems like a really good way to get my feelings out there and be heard, and also all of my freinds are doin it so i want to to, ok well i will try to update this thing as much as i can and make it funny or tragic or just whatever. well to talk about something first off i have a horrible job i sell food at the esa arena and im not sure its normal to have thoughts of suicide everytime i go to work but i do. I also have been trying to, in a way chase a certain person and try to start something out of nothing, but i have totally stopped trying to talk to her or impress her, if you dont know who im talking about maybe the clue tea party will give you a clue to who it is, i have stopped because i am 17 and in 4 months eighteen i really just want to live my life how it is right now i have the best friends ever and i really dont need anything else... well i hope this all made sense

-Josh